Me, myself

And then I came to you
Seeking for the peace
That I was looking for
But
You turned me down
For you, too, were
as helpless as me ..

his story

After a long time he has come back .. it's been a series of rather unpleasant incidents that he had been through .. giving him a feeling for the first time that there are other serious issues than academics that can disturb someone to a great extent. Personally at his place he's been alright. But he began to realise that the place he works at is not the only world that he should care for. There are certain things which he is also a part of and which made him think even more than his personal/professional life. And this very feeling came at the time when he was actually getting cut off from his social life .. and started living for only himself, for his own goods.

Many a times during the last month and a half he felt like sharing the feelings with someone but he could never do .. gradually he got accustomed to his solitude .. when he would talk to himself .. in private ..

He started having a different lifestyle .. stopped caring for his health .. a feeling of let-things-come-in-their-own-ways made him more and more indifferent to his surroundings - people, society .. he was getting closer and closer to nature that he never had been to ..

In his professional life he had a peaceful time .. with the things taking their own time .. materailising gradually .. but he had no complaints about that .. for he is not too ambitious and feels happy from his little achievements ..

But the world was unveiling its hard realities to him .. letting him discover the dark sides of the people around him .. the ones he used to have faith on .. he felt bad .. at times he cried .. but he recovered .. for he knew that everything is not destined to get its due justice .. and at times he felt very helpless ..

and then would go out for fresh air .. to breathe fully .. and again would sink into darkness and silence .. and solitude ..

and then he felt like standing in front of the mirror .. he knows that at least there exists someone he can always trust .. perhaps ..